A memory of a day in the Colonial distict of Hanoi, Vietnam, without all the worry.
The Highway Shaman Wisdom for August 4, 2020
Spanish for today – I am an artist and a mystic = Soy artista y mistica
I think the difference between happiness and depression is the attachment to results. I’ve gone through a process of getting rear-ended by a semi-truck resulting in a mild traumatic brain injury, and finally the settlement result a year later, which was to be yesterday. So my stress and depression had a lot to do about the worry and fear, and maybe extreme joy, some variation of projected emotion to the questionable anticipated result. It was postponed. I wrote a one year update on my condition which was sent to the opposing attorney. They want two more weeks. So somehow that resulted in less stress and more energy. I pulled an Osho Zen tarot card to give myself clarity on all this.
5 of Water – CLINGING TO THE PAST:
These tenses – past, present and future – are not the tenses of time; they are tenses of the mind. That which is no longer before the mind becomes the past. That which is before the mind is the present. And that which is going to be before the mind is the future. Past is that which is no longer before you. Future is that which is not yet before you. And present is that which is before you and is slipping out of your sight. Soon it will be past . . . If you don’t cling to the past . . . because clinging to the past is absolute stupidity. It is no longer there, so you are crying over spilled milk. What is gone is gone! And don’t cling to the present because that is also going and soon it will be past. Don’t cling to the future – hopes, imaginations, plans for tomorrow – because tomorrow will become today, will become yesterday. Everything is going to become yesterday. Everything is going to go out of your hands. Clinging will simply create misery. You will have to let it go.
“It is time to face up to the fact that the past is gone, and any effort to repeat it is a sure way to stay stuck in old blueprints that you would have already outgrown if you hadn’t been so busy clinging to what you have already been through. Take a deep breath, put the box down, tie it up in a pretty ribbon if you must, and bid it a fond and reverent farewell. Life is passing you by, and you’re in danger of becoming an old fossil before your time.”
So, basically, the lesson for me is – I got hit by a truck in the past. It happened. What will result from it will be what shows up in present time. Be in present time. Worrying or even thinking of an outcome creates a form of misery. I need to let it go and be here now. In that respect I drew another card. This goes with a question which was posed the other day, “Who are you?” I am an artist and a mystic, and all those other things like how much money I have or who I follow politically, actually all my beliefs, are inferior diversions in regards to me being the Creator that I am.
King of Fire – THE CREATOR
There are two types of creators in the world – one type works with objects – a poet, painter, they work with objects, they create things. The other type of creator, the mystic, creates himself. He doesn’t work with objects, he works with the subject – he works on himself, his own being. And he is the real creator, the real poet because he makes himself into a masterpiece. You are carrying a masterpiece hidden within you, but you are standing in the way. Just move aside, then the masterpiece will be revealed. Everyone is a masterpiece, because God never gives birth to anything less than that. Everyone carries that masterpiece hidden for many lives, not knowing who they are, and just trying on the surface to become someone. Drop the idea of becoming someone, because you already are a masterpiece. You cannot be improved. You have only to come to it, to know it, to realize it. God has himself created you, you cannot be improved.
“The King of Fire tells us that anything we undertake now, with the understanding that comes from maturity, will bring enrichment our lives and to the lives of others. Using whatever skills you have, whatever you have learned from your own life experience, it is time to express yourself.”