Ceramic sculpture by Dakan
(rebirthing the man in my heart)
The Highway Shaman Wisdom Reading
for June 26, 2020
I’ve self isolated for nearly a year. Last August, for the six months following my brain injury, I was too sensitive to be around most people. Any mental, emotional or physical challenge greatly upset me. I chose to go within, to heal all three; which I feel I’ve accomplished. At the same time, I miss having conversations with like-minded friends. The thought of having a companion, the day to day enjoyment of another’s energy and company, came up.
I’ve been writing novels for 18 years and for most of those years my desire was to have them published or turned into TV series’. They would be successful and I would have the means to afford a decent living for myself and possibly a companion, perhaps a love interest. I’ve come to realize that money isn’t or shouldn’t be a factor. Regardless, I concluded, now in my elder years, that living a life without emotional ups and downs, has made me happy and at peace. Is this true? This morning I had the thought of being in a love relationship and I drew the DESIRE card, reversed. It reminded me that I am a powerful creator, and in this area I have “unclear or inconsistent intentions.”
And then I drew the CLINGING TO THE PAST card, appropriately, it reads, “It is time to face up to the fact that the past is gone, and any effort to repeat it is a sure way to stay stuck in old blueprints that you would have already outgrown if you hadn’t been so busy clinging to what you have already been through. Take a deep breath, put the box down, tie it up in a pretty ribbon if you must, and bid it a fond and reverent farewell. Life is passing you by, and you’re in danger of becoming an old fossil before your time.” Yikes !
And, also appropriately, the answer came in the next card, PAGE OF WATER; for me to open my heart, to be innocent and curious, to be willing to begin anew with intimacy and relationships; to be playful with cheerful optimism.
The Elements Tarot: DESIRE: Focusing the mind and emotions on a specific objective. Pulling for a wanted condition or outcome.
REVERSED: Lack of continued focus on a specific result. Unclear or inconsistent intention.
Osho Zen Tarot: 5 of Water – CLINGING TO THE PAST:
These tenses – past, present and future – are not the tenses of time; they are tenses of the mind. That which is no longer before the mind becomes the past. That which is before the mind is the present. And that which is going to be before the mind is the future. Past is that which is no longer before you. Future is that which is not yet before you. And present is that which is before you and is slipping out of your sight. Soon it will be past . . . If you don’t cling to the past . . . because clinging to the past is absolute stupidity. It is no longer there, so you are crying over spilled milk. What is gone is gone! And don’t cling to the present because that is also going and soon it will be past. Don’t cling to the future – hopes, imaginations, plans for tomorrow – because tomorrow will become today, will become yesterday. Everything is going to become yesterday. Everything is going to go out of your hands. Clinging will simply create misery. You will have to let it go.
“It is time to face up to the fact that the past is gone, and any effort to repeat it is a sure way to stay stuck in old blueprints that you would have already outgrown if you hadn’t been so busy clinging to what you have already been through. Take a deep breath, put the box down, tie it up in a pretty ribbon if you must, and bid it a fond and reverent farewell. Life is passing you by, and you’re in danger of becoming an old fossil before your time.”
The Good Tarot:
PAGE OF WATER – Openheartedness, Innocence and curiosity, beginning of intimacy and relationships, playfulness, cheerful optimism
“I open my hear fully, allowing myself to feel childlike wonder and innocence. All adventures lead me to where I need to go. Love awaits! Life is a delightful dance, and I am here to frolic and play. I am ready with a big smile, and I have on my dancing shoes.”